Researching Bread

In my mind, there is the understanding and knowledge of things that I could lose.





The thought of it is unbearble. almost surreal, like it belongs in a movie or a distant universe.

















And this is why I try to never let it slide, everyday, and f I do, I make sure, I claw back in.






I love you.

3rd From 10

I imagine things that will never be and things that have been.




Days when it happens, it broods, darkens everything. And there are times when it stays on for a time and makes the weeks pass easier.





I imagined a time and a place, with someone else, anyone else I could picture. I thought of a place, what I would be wearing and how it would play out.


Smiles, maybe one or two.



But what came rushing through my senses was.......

It made me sick. 

Like the unimaginable urge to not be there in the same place, the restlesness, feeling so uncomfortable and disgusted. 




And I know. 

This Is True

You will never know who I am.



Ever.