Fall

Never thought I'd feel again
Feel the darkness fade and see the morning sun arise
Never thought I'd feel alive again
Senses dull and blunt from all the lies

Now, when I hold your face so close to mine
I see a place where the sun will shine, with you it is divine

Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be lost and never found again
Kiss me once and I will surely melt and die
kiss me twice and I will never leave your side...(if) Dreams Come True

Do I dare to trust this time?
Ooh, the Bells of Fortune, will I ever hear them chime?
Only those who have been burned before
Truly know the meaning of Hell's flaming core

I was the brooding night and you were dawn
Saving me, for I was forlorn, in your light I am reborn

Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be lost and never found again
Kiss me once and I will surely melt and die,
Kiss me twice and I will never leave your side...(if) Dreams Come True

Then, when the walls are breaking down on us,
When all we see is misery will you still believe in me?

Looking down into those eyes, I know, I'll be lost and never found again
Kiss me once and I will surely melt and die,
Kiss me twice and I will never leave your side,
Until the sign of winter, always by your side....(Dreams Come True)

Full Measure

I am an insane man.


I fear the worst as truth shines through slowly. I know where the answers lie. But the road over is hard. There are things I have to do that will be unforgivable. This unknown to many people, if not all, is my only salvation. I have wandered far from my faith, done things I should have not. Dedicated a part of my life to the darker side, and each time I step into the light, it hurts and I know in my heart that I must return. If I ever want forgiveness, redemption, happiness and success in my life, I must go back. I have admitted defeat and now my mind is a blur.

I have asked many a time to many a person, "Would you kill others to save yourself?".
That is the question I am faced with today. And my answer is the same as is was before...







Yes........

Roads Are Getting Nearer

I play this song when I fear the worst. Because when it grows dark, when the wind hastens on the flat barren plain, I need that reality.


It came to me in time all but when I was a young child. It asked for my name, I told it I was called Suffering. I dared fate and asked for its name. It told me it was Pain. There and then I embraced it, calling him Saviour and My Love for Pain and Suffering walk hand in hand on lonely roads and red drenched hardships. I now call it, 'Him'.

He held me close and told me of dark secrets. He brought me to the edge of the world and showed me the treachery of all that lived. I swallowed it into myself, and beheld the true wonders of humanity. But in it's pleasure and mine, I lost my ever singing soul. In exchange for understanding, I gave away the true self.

And here I stand on crimson paths, the gloom of the world passing by, a grey dawn and its darkening age, the slow decay of human reason, the faith lost with the hot wind. Trust a slipping memory. I asked him how I would survive each passing day and henceforth. He smiled at me with glowing eyes and told me that he would help me day by day as he saw fit. The story of my maker.
I fall into misery and confusion, I feel depression and opression. I want it to end, this limitless vision. I want everything to end, this pain and suffering. For I only want to be with him and no one else. I want to breathe no more. Bleed no more, beat no more. For all that persists now is lies and betrayal.





I have to keep him alive. My master, my saviour, my all and my life.