Sick With My Gatekeeper

I could feel the madness creep into my mind as I wandered my dark home alone.

I switched off the lights and felt the cold sweep around me while I took in the musty air that my house was filled with. I felt insanity walk through the door in a dark deep shadow, I felt the hair on the back of my neck rise.
I heard evil whisper in my ear, convincing me that I should do what I was thinking. I felt light, happier, bigger, stronger.
I felt real.

Yes, it's all about me. I am madness, I am evil, I am darkness, I am pain. Because when I woke up this day, I screamed with all that was in me to the people that shared the same house,



"Satan Is Alive! And He Lives In Me."

Grapple On Cherry

Know what's kinda sad? Watching a kid grow up, seeing that persons huge potential, and then realise they're gonna take the "Big" step of either in one persons view, something really stupid, or in another, something that would make a star out of them. And that person is, Emma Watson.

And quote:
Asked if she would strip for a role, she replied: "Yes. For Bernardo Bertolucci. It... depends. I'm not getting my kit off any time soon, but it is part of my job."




Interesting, if you ask me, but at the same time, kind of disappointing. She's, like so young.

Scuzza Me, But You See, Back In Old Napoli

"When the moon hits you eye like a big pizza pie
That's amore
When the world seems to shine like you've had too much wine
That's amore
When the stars make you drool just like a pasta fazool
That's amore
When you dance down the street with a cloud at your feet
You're in love
When you walk down in a dream but you know you're not
Dreaming signore
That's amore"



Lol. You just make me sooo happy! And I lurrrrrrrrve you my little Rock star. The only one that can make me dance with red high heels and a bowler hat. The very moments I think of you, it's BIG bottles of 'Love' champagne popping all over.
For my Sapphire,


My love for all time.

Your Hands To Heaven

"You think i'd leave your side baby
you know me better than that
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that..
...i'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me
oh when you're cold
i'll be there
hold you tight to me..."




I sat here for a time
Looking for something to fill that line
Instead, I found myself smiling and dreaming
Of your beautiful eyes, and in my heart, your voice still singing
The sun creeping in, I hoped you missed me too
Sliding under the covers, all I really had in my mind was a single thought....
That I really, wholeheartedly, undoubtedly, truly and deeply..
Love You.

At Midnight

"You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would've believe that you were a part of a dream..."





You know I can't smile without you.....

Just you.

It's A Worldwide Symphony.

She said it was inspired by the worst thing imaginable.
I believed her.
I knew what it felt to be inspired by the worst thing.

But why are we? Does it speak through us?

Even if it was from another place, why does it move me so? I felt his soul crying out in pain, although the lyrics seemed to be happy and carefree, somewhat of beauty. I felt it as my own, I knew what he meant.
Maybe he knew what I know too. We won't make it. That its darkness overwhelms us completely, and we're grasping at that last ray of light, crying, hoping, begging for mercy.


Somehow, I know that I have the same fate as him. The tears and pain that surge are just a reminder that it was too late for him, and me....

EF 5

I played a tornado warning siren for roughly about 20 mins just to get the feel of how it sounded like. Kinda like to get into the mind, or atmosphere of it. My neighbours think i'm crazy. I blast all sorts of sounds throughout the day. Who cares.



Right now, jobs are hard to come by, but what's on my mind now is this new 'Thing' i'm doing. I'm literally exhausted by the commitment each day put into it. Trying to figure out all new angles to it and really getting it to come together perfectly.
Although, now, I can hardly sleep without it suddenly haunting me. Christ, what imagination does to a person. Burns the nerves.